Wednesday, November 30, 2005

Don't make school your number one priority while in College


Max always said not to make school your number one priority in college but I feel like that is exactly what I have done since being back in school.

My first stint of school I was lucky just to get up and get to class, barely skimming by with C's. I was no one's notion of a student of excellence but this semester I don't miss class...unless I have gotten permission from the teacher. I turn everything in on time and am overjoyed to count up my points and calculate what I have to get on the final to keep my "A."

But folks, it is so not worth the stress of keeping up this super high standard. I am not just making A's I am trying to scavenge for every possible point available. I am trying to make a high A. My grades range from 95-98s right now. For me this is idolatry. It is sin.

I just got a term paper back from my sociology of Africa class. I got a 95. I am so proud of myself for doing so well. Writing is not my strongest point. But immediatly I examined it for flaws. The teacher only said excellent things. I was annoyed, thinking, "Well, if it was such an excellent paper then why a 95, why not a 100?!"

Do you see?

Jesus, I confess my deep need for you. My lack of seeking you with all of my heart has turn my focus inwardly to my own success and made me distracted from your plan for my semester. Please forgive me and help me overcome my pride and idolatry.

1 comment:

Dan said...

I love hearin your thoughts. School is not your strongest point anyway.. do what you do best, make disciples.